Last week in our grief group I talked about how great I am at worrying about the future.
WHAT IF I LOSE MY JOB, WHAT IF THEY LAY ME OFF NEXT WEEK, WHAT IF THEY DON'T GIVE ME A SEVERANCE, WHAT IF WE CAN'T FIND WORK RIGHT AWAY, WHAT IF SOMETHING BAD HAPPENS, WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO ABOUT THE BILLS, WHAT ABOUT THE HOSPITAL BILL, WHAT ABOUT OWING TAXES, ETC ETC ETC
She called this future "What If'ing," putting my energy out there in the future when it's most needed right here in the present. She suggested I put a rubber band on my wrist and to snap it each time I begin thinking this way. Doing this changes my response to these thoughts that waste my energy and DO NOT help my cause.
I pray for future children. I pray for happy full time jobs we both love. I pray for a nice new apartment or home. I pray for more happiness & joy to enter my life. I pray for healing. I pray for more energy. These are all experiences I pray will manifest throughout my life this year.
Perhaps if I can remember to snap my thoughts back away from the fear, I can switch them over to feelings of joy and abundance. All I can do is try.
xo
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