Crap

Dear God,

I'm in a heap of stress and I'd like to hand it all over to you, so I can relax and not worry!
My husband and I had our son die in labor December 4th, 2010. We are just beginning to deal with this grief and trauma and on top of it all, my job is in jeopardy. I've been supporting my husband financially for almost 2 years now. In that time we've made so many sacrifices, and I've gone through an entire pregnancy only to lose my son and now this. I'm really spiritually & emotionally tired.

Here's what I wish for:
Right now, I'd love to be able to get out of here with 6 weeks pay and come home to my husband telling me that he found steady work! This will be the tag team in the rally race of life, I'll pass my baton to him and he'll run with it! Meanwhile, I am applying for work where I can, but something tells me my talents can be better used elsewhere, do you agree?

So take my burdens, ALL OF THEM, and let me live stress free & care free! I will trust you'll send me messages that everything will be just fine so that I continue not to worry at all and enjoy my life the way I was meant to.

Here are my nagging thoughts:
What about taxes? Are we going to be able to pay what we owe? What are we going to owe since we didn't have a baby nor pay any taxes?
If I lose my job, what will we do about benefits? Will I have health care? What if I get pregnant again and we don't have health care? Are we going to be ok?

ARE WE GOING TO BE OKAY?

Your fan.
Jennifer