My heart breaks at times when I least expect it. There is no way to know when it comes, I can just hope to deal with it the best I can.
I happen to be the best aunt in the world to two amazing kids. Adelee is almost 4 & Gordie is almost 3. They were well aware of the baby and were so excited to meet their new cousin! However, they never got to meet him, yet they know he existed. My sis in law has told them that James is now an angel, so to my knowledge they understand he came out of me and he's mine but just not "here."
Heart break #1 - Gordie hands me a baby toy and says "for baby" which means put it under my shirt so baby can have it.
*Insert sound of heart breaking*
Heart break #2 - Adelee was coloring a picture, she turns to me and asks "Jenny, does your baby have three toes?" She caught me off guard, but not so painful. Then she turns and asks "Jenny, does James have spiky hair?" And heart totally broken, tears forming, can hardly speak through a frowned mouth "uh, yes he does." I got up to go to the bathroom to cry. I can never see these coming, just gotta roll with it! As a result I have the coolest picture on our fridge of me and my baby James with spiky hair.
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