May 6th was my 33rd birthday and five months after losing James.
We went to explore Descanso Gardens in La Canada. The gardens are amazingly beautiful and such a great way to spend a birthday. As we walked the grounds I noticed there was a butterfly flying around us. And As we walked farther, I kept seeing it - same color and everything. I said "Nel, see there he is again! I wonder why we're being followed" and Nel responded "honey, it's a garden I'm sure there's lots of butterflies." But I wasn't so sure.
On the back part of the Californian area, we stopped to take in the trees and a beautiful brown and white hawk landed in the tree above us. He sat, looking at us and we watched him with awe. We must have been there for 10 minutes until he flew to another tree. It's nice when you get a chance to observe nature like this.
Around the next bend in the path we noticed the butterfly again! It landed on a branch on a log in a path. As silly as it sounds, my intuition was telling me this could be James visiting us. I wandered up to check him out and he flew up around my head. I thought he was going to land on my hat! He settled on a branch just to my left about 6 feet high. Now Nel was coming up the path and we just stood there and stared at him. We got close but he did not fly away. We even talked to him and said "James, is that you?" and he put both his wings down as if to say yes. This moment was transcendental for us. We really felt like we were getting a rare glimpse into another realm. So we said "Okay James, we're going now you coming with us?" And as soon as we turned down the path he flew up above our heads following us.
This experience filled me up with so much love, that it carried me into Mother's day two days later.
Thank you James for your presence.
We are learning so much from you.
Love, Mom & Dad
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